In these tears i drown

Well daddy its been a while and i miss you everyday
more than i can imagine, more than my emotions say
this world is very cruel, and lately i feel alone
and sense your not hear, i conquer pain on my own

Sometimes i shed a tear because i no you wont be back
sometimes im so sad, everything around me turns black
i wish i couldve said i loved you before you went away
but the only time your listening, is at night when i pray

it feels like no one loves me and you were the only one
i got in a fight with this girl, and it wasnt me that won
but daddy dont you think it was an actual fight
she said some awful words, and turned my day to night

at times like right now, when im spilling out my tears
i look back at all the times we had, all through the years
im so sorry i was mad at you i never wanted you to die
but now i feel so sad, because i no that i made you cry

i feel like its my fault, because i no you had depression
you thought that i hated u, im sorry i left that impresion
i love you so much, u dont understand what i would do
i would slit my throat to see you, if thats what i had to go through

but no matter what i say, i no you wont be here
as long as your looking down, i have nothing to fear
just dont you ever forget as im typing all this down
forever and ever i sit here, and in these tears i drown