This Hold On Me (You've Got It)

You've got this hold on me that I can't quite explain,
Asking me what I wish for I'm quick to look away,
For revealing it to you would defeat the very purpose,
And it's the only thing I have that you still don't,
So I'm holding onto it a bit longer, if you don't mind.

I find myself wishing on everything these days,
But I'm finding that wishes don't make themselves come true,
So instead of pleading with my stubborn heart and anxious mind,
I will stage an attempt to reveal these unexpressed feelings,
And allow this paper to hold the words which I cannot say.

You don't even realize the things I would do for you,
For when your sad, your sadness becomes my own,
And if I could I would cry your tears for you,
And I would give you all my smiles and laughter,
Even if it meant that I would never be happy again.

Truth be told I would take a bullet for you,
Because you mean more to me than I mean to myself,
And sometimes I crumble under the weight of our two worlds,
But in the end it's worth it, because I'd hate to see you unhappy.
I guess I've always thought you'd want the same for me.

Sometimes being around you makes me lose my words,
And my nervously beating heart shoots right out of my chest,
Landing in your gentle hands, you carelessly throw it away,
So from time to time, I get this urge to rip out your heart,
And replace it with my own, just to make you feel the same.

Oh, and you know just how much you're changing me,
And I have to say I'm not so sure I like the person I've become,
But I linger on your words and overanalyze your actions,
Because I love every inch of you, from the inside and out,
And I really want to be the girl who's able to steal your heart.

You've got this hold on me that I can't quite explain,
Asking me what I wish for I'm quick to look away,
For revealing it to you would defeat the very purpose,
And it's the only thing I have that you still don't,
So I'm holding onto it a bit longer, if you don't mind.

But if by chance you read this, here are the words I cannot say,
And even if I did, I'm not so sure they'd reach you,
Because sometimes you pick and choose the words you want to hear,
But at least I still have my wish, even if it's never coming true,
And it's accompanied by my newfound realization.

[My wish]: To have this hold on you, that you have on me.
[My realization]: The hold you have on me is love.

Even though I'm wishing on everything these days,
From the stars in your eyes, to the stars in the sky,
I'm finding that wishes don't make themselves come true,
But now that I know what this hold is you have on me,
Maybe, just maybe, I can have this hold on you...

February 26, 2008