Always Love Him

Girls often throw around the word love
Like it means nothing at all
But i said it and meant it this time
With no intention for it to fall.

But as i lay there at night
Thoughts running through my head
The whole house is quiet.
It sounds so dead.

Tears streaming down my face
As my heart catches up to my mind
I lay there breathless
As i let myself unwind

Hoping i will make it through the night
And still wishing he was mine
For him no doubt about it
I would lay my life on the line.

Wanting to relax
But my body stays upbeat
My head is pounding and I'm so dizzy
I cant stand up straight on my feet

I promise ill always love you
Til the day of my last breath
ill always be there for you
Til the day of my death.

Although wishing
That day would come quick
watching time fly by
Listening to the clock tick

Nothing else to do
And nothing else to live for
Feels like my hearts been shot
As if it had been at war.

My mind works uncontrollably
As it replays what you said
I cant help but think of
All the lies you had fed.

I'm trying my hardest
To let go of the past
I thought it'd be forever
But some things aren't meant to last.

Makes me regret meeting you
For i wouldn't have to deal with this pain
There may not be a thunderstorm outside
But inside its all lightening and rain

Ill keep my promises made to you
Never shall they be broken
And though there are a million things id love to say
Ill keep my mind unspoken