Please Make All This Hurt Go Away... I am on my Knees

It is too much!
I can not take it!
Please make all this hurt go away.
I am on my knees.
I am crying.
Can not take this pain any more!

It is getting hard,
so much harder,
to keep from making myself bleed.

Too much stress.
It is killing me.
It is getting worse everyday.

I thought I was getting better.
I was a liar,
but only to myself.

I do not want to be sad any more,
I do not want to cut any more,
I do not want to hurt my friends any more,
I do not want to hurt my love any more.

My tears are rolling,
There is no stopping them now.
I have been holding back,
but I can not hold back anymore!

What can I do now?
I do not want to tell anyone,
but I need to tell someone.
I do not want anyone to worry.
My friends love me too much.
I can not hurt them again.
What now?
I need to know what to do.

Because I can not take this anymore.
I am on my knees.
I am crying.
Can not take this pain any more!

yea, this poem probably sucks but i don't care because needed to vent my emotions some really badly.