As my tears fall

My tears fall as I bring the blade near
For Im not ending my life
In the hatred of others
Or the pain I feel

I bring the blade close
For the pain I have not felt
Im scared to do it
Because of so much Ill miss

But the fear is overwhelming
In the back of my mind
For everythings coming
But all to soon

In the lifes years
You to will see
What I have found
The pain you will find

Call me a coward
As I bring that blade near
Say Im messed up when that blade comes down
But I felt that pain

I felt the pain of loss
Future and past
And what will never be

My tears fall as I bring the blade near
I bring the blade close
For the pain I have not felt