It's horrible watching

Day in day out
watching the smiling faces
of the residents
watching them become unwell
watching their mobility
gradually go
until it's completely gone
watching them deteriorate
week after week
watching their smiles
fade away
day by day
their expressions stay the same
as their mind and body
disintegrates
watching them all suffer
not being able to help
coming on shift
to find another has passed
another and another
till there all gone
it's horrible watching them
waiting to die
i ask myself
can i cope much longer?
can i even cope at all?