Suicidal Thoughts (the beginning)

Times when stress and life was to much
Wanting to cry these eyes out
struggling in class
escape away to a place they wont find me
I'll sit upon the ground
hide behind the door
take that blade and use it baby
see how long it takes to feel a bit of the high
let your blood flow baby its okay
go entirely insane inside
cover up the wounds
brush off whats left of this new mood
baby I see you now
and there you are again falling to the floor
stress and life is to much
I see now its not only an addiction
but an illness
illness to be cured by death
take the rope and wrap it around your throat
step off that chair and say your last goodbyes
people had said so many horrible things about me
the lids always made things worse for me
when really I was just trying to fit in and be welcome
I remember the school nurse
and I remember the day you made the lie
that I was gonna commit an awful sin
which in god's eyes your going straight to hell
inflict upon yourself the pain you feel inside
write about it
draw about it,
but god don't act on it......

~more to be added~ & writing a new section on this... more detailed and stufff./