Cant control the urges
Cant control this pain
I wanna break free
Stop crying myself to sleep.
Ill put a bullet in my chest
To stop the suffering if I must
Trust in my words...
Im not afraid if its for the best
I want you to guide me through
This awful mess that Im part of
You can save me if you only try
Save me and watch me sleep soundly
I want you to help me...
But I doubt you actually love me that much
I dont think anyone does...
They dont care if Im here or not
So maybe I should end this...
Maybe I should cut a little deeper
And amuse myself with a stream
Of crimson tears running
Every single day is proof
I can beat this, Im still here
My beating heart is a sign...
There is still hope for me... for us.
Everyday I debate on ... everything
Am I going to get help?
Do I love- or do I love-?
Should I kill myself...?
The people I love so dearly
Don�t have a clue what I go through
The pain... and suffering...
The lying-
Ill make them feel it
Break the very ground they stand upon
They will see my reality-
The truth they thrust towards me
This will be a lesson to all
To prove I am somebody
Who? I dont give a damn
But I exist... For now
The blade is calling to me
Singing a sweet lullaby
Its so pretty... I just wanna...
Breath it in, never let it out
I whisper softly "No...
I cant get through this"
I cry myself to sleep
"I dont need you!"
But its so true...
I need you more than you realize.
I need the rush... need to
See the rich color...
This feeling of needâ... dependence
It scares me... I will prove...
I control myself, me not you!
I dont need it to function.
