Hiding from that what must
Not be named aloud
Bearing this secret from them all
Pretending I'm not scared
Suck it in, hold my breath,
Just to walk on water
And show them all...
I'm fine
I built this fake front
All to hide my true feelings
My obsessions, my habits
To hide the fear, the pain
To hide this feeling
Of hatred for myself,
For him... for live itself
I'm truthful
Showing them all my
Good side, although
Somewhat fake, The good girl side of me
Showing them I'm the
Ideal daughter, or at least to
Those around me
Excluding my parents
I'm perfect
Keeping it all inside
All the pain, the anger
The sarrow, love
Anything I feel I just
Lock it all away, Store it
Till I feel I'm going to burst
Into a million peices
I'm contained
Slow the pain, make it stop
Pressure against skin, makes
The pain fade away, as
Other pain surfaces, much better
Than the pain on the inside
This pain red... only caused
On ones accord
I'm faulty
Hiding the scars and crimson
From them all, hoping
Praying that they still love me
When I know they don't
They never did and never will
I yearn for it so badly
I pretend to be what they want
I'm rejected
To bad one day I'll fix all these problems
Fix the unmistakable truth
truth that scares us all, just to
Press a little harder, pull the trigger, get the nerve
To help yourself and to destroy the ones
Who trully loved you and always will
Those who noticed a bit too late...
I'm gone
