You're Making It Come Alive

Down this awful poison
Let it slowly spread
Kill what's left of you

Drown in the pain
As you watch a sight
You thought you would never see

Read my lips, unable to
Understand the slurred words
As I stumbled towards you hands

I let you take me in
Let you toy with me
While I am in a dream like state of consciousness

I know I didn't want it then
But I want it more than ever now
But... it's not that simple is it?

The way your hands traced
My, back then, tiny body
As I wept ever so softly

I cried out and you hissed
Why did you have to...?
I can't understand even at 14

This stranger in my nightmares
Why must he toy with me...?
Why wouldn't he wait for me to be of age?

I remember the feeling
The feeling of being violated...
The touch of his hands again my skin

Painless, I think...
Or maybe the pain is blocked
From the memories I choose to remember

The only thing I'm sure of
Is this feeling of loss and betrayal
That has ignited in my veins

So do as you please with me
You can't possibly break me anymore
For you see I am already a shattered mess

So as rough as you may be
You can never make me cry
I will NEVER cry over something so trivial...