Gone Away.

He'd never understand.
andd he'd never know why.
i look his way and hold my head down
to hide the tears that i would cry.

He'd never notice, he'd never care
because I'm the one that let go
he's quiet and silent as he walks my way
never letting me know

He'd take a glimpse then look away,
as if he was the one that was hurt
then look straight forward, down the hall
leaving my heart an open desert

I quickly look down to hide pain
and hope that i can set up my walls
to keep out all the heartbreakers
that weren't looking for love after all

never thought it'd be soo hard to let go
never knew it felt so wrong to be right
I held my head up to be strong
but I let myself cry to sleep at night

I didn't want it to come this far
and I didn't want myself to fall so fast
I held in my final breath
as if the feeling of dying could last

but I whispered something that he'd understand
something he might finally hear
something about a goodbye.
something about all those tears.

I let him into my pain and my world
Let him know that he wasn't alone,
in a struggle of wits against love
a suffering that has not yet been shown

that was the last time i saw him before death
but theres something that i won't forget

before i found light in the heavens
the message had finally gone through
there was a tear and a smile as he whispered.
don't go. I love you.