December '07 isn't when it happened. it happened over a span of a year and a half. December of 07 is when i had enough.
i could've taken more. but why? why hurt myself at the expense of someone else? if he loved me how he said i wouldn't be numb. i would be able to feel pain.
one time i loved and one time i was broken. is love for me? of course. love is for everyone with a beating heart. it'll take time for my heart to piece itself back together. it'll take time for me to find who i truly am, who i truly want.
being in love is a beautiful thing when one isn't taking advantage of it. i want to experience that beautiful thing again... but will i? now i am guarded, afraid of what another guy will do to me. so i remain single. not because i couldn't be in love right now, but i choose not to be. thats not for me. not right now.
