Shaking I'm trying to understand
This feeling is indescribable
Weightless, rule less..
Thoughts racing,
Nerves on end, I can seem to
Think straight.. my mind
Is foggy... I'm
So very lightheaded
But I like this feeling
I feel in control
Feel like I can do anything.
No thoughts of death
Or cutting
I am obsessed with this feeling
I lust for this... I want
To feel this way always
Maybe for forever..
Violence.. cutting..
Doing what I know is wrong
The thought of defying
My parents gives me the
Most beautiful feeling.
I want so much to try everything
To know how it feels
Everything... good and bad.
Legal and illegal.
It doesn't matter I
NEED
To complete myself..
And this is how
