This Beast Inside

Since early childhood i have had this beast
love, friendship and all good are his feast

it consumes me and makes me separate
so hard to describe i can barely interpret

endless cycles of pain and torment tears me up inside
no one else has this pain so who do i dare to confide?

i watch the social groups, i see their bright smiles
this beast and I walk together through the miles

after all the good inside me is eaten and gone
the rest of me will convert to the beast's spawn

no one will ever get close enough let alone in
this all seems a recurring theme I never win

forever alone with my little dark beast
who close to me will be the next feast?