I can't hide behind this fake smile anymore
i do i for my daughter, which i adore
i feel like I'm trapped inside my head
strange feelings of wanting to be dead
i just don't know what to do
when it comes to raising a child i don't have a clue
i wish i could go back in time, to when i was fifteen
i wish i could take back what these eyes have seen
my life is slowly falling apart
i feel as though i need to restart
i just want one do over
the realness of suicide feelings are getting closer
but that would be the easy way out
my feelings make me want to scream and shout
i have failed as a good mother
a good sister, a good daughter
i feel like my life is worth nothing
but i know I'm here for something
i wish god would just take all my hurt away
my depression gets worse with each day
i live behind a false smile
i know my life is not worth while
it's like my whole family hates me
because I'm not who they want me to be
it's hard to even talk to my mother
i can't tell her how much I'm bothered
my cousin marliegh took the easy way
they say shes in a better place
full of happiness and cheer
i wanna be there
i just can't bring myself to do it
my baby girl shes the only one
who will notice if I'm gone
so I'm gunna stay here for her
hopefully one day they'll find a cure
