Cruel Love

As I sit here,
I wonder, why?
Do you not love,
Do you want to make me cry?
As I say I love you,
I’m always in fear,
That silence will follow,
The end is near.

When you come around,
I know he follows.
When life becomes difficult,
The blade is your friend.
When life is unbearable,
Then what will you do?

Never saying you love me,
And not speaking the truth,
Can I go on,
To trust you?
Do you want to push me away,
Or are you just trying to keep me safe?
Do you want me to leave your life,
Or stick by your side?
Goodbye cruel love,
For you I die.