Losing Jun

From 10 phone calls a day,
To 0 calls a day,
Trying to let go so you can have your way,
But I never know what to say.

Enjoying the times we spent talking on the phone,
Talked so much that my phone bill shot up to a $1000,
Risking my life to use my phone,
Covering the receiver in my own chamber.

As days pass, you rarely spend your time with me,
All you do is spend your time in the soccer field,
Trying to set my sorrows and jealousy free,
Wishing that you were always with me.

So here I am,
Stuck in my sorrowful world,
Trying to aim,
The lock that will get me out of my horrible world.

Finally I had enough,
And I decide to give up,
I think you also had enough,
And our love disappeared in a tiny dull puff.

I cried myself to sleep,
Looking back at the messages you sent me,
I started to weep,
Feeling like a fool to let the love free.

I didnt sleep the entire night,
Feeling the love and hatred fight,
Felt like someone had punch me in the heart,
But you never left my mind.

The next day my eyes were puffy red,
You probably forget everything I said,
I couldt bear it any longer so I called you,
But someone took the phone from you.

I waited a few days until you have your phone back,
I planned to tell you everything,
Hearing your voice makes my tears flow and my voice started to crack
So I ended up telling you nothing.

All I have to say is to check your e-mail,
I put all my feelings in the mail,
So please reply,
I tried saying those on the phone, but Im afraid Im just too shy.

The teddy you gave me on Valentines Day,
Reminds me of your love,
Now I feel like Im left stray,
Wishing I didnt make the mistake that broke the eternal love.