Half a Mommy

How do I tell my little girl
That Daddy is not coming home
He moved into another house
But she can call him on the phone

How do I explain to her
That I did what is right for us
How will my choice affect her
And how do I regain her trust

How can she count on me now
After I ripped apart her world
She does not know the hell I live
For she is just a little girl

She only knows make believe
She is too young to make the decisions
What I do will change her life
And affect her way of living

She does not know we are better off
And how joyful we will be
When her Mommy is much happier
When it is just her and me

She only sees me smile at her
She does not see my tears
She only sees my strong side
As I cover up my weakness and my fears

How do I change my life
Without breaking her little heart
Will she ever forgive me
For making a new start

Am I being selfish
Because I want to put me first
For she has been number one
Since the day that I gave birth

What will she think of me
After she grows up
Will she be proud of my sacrifice
Or be disappointed that I gave up

But am I sending her the message
That mediocrity is alright
Will she be just like me
Crying in the night

I want to set an example
By teaching her to be strong
But how can I be role model
When I am living my life all wrong

It is time I am the Mommy
And step up to the plate
Take the upper hand
And never lose touch with fate

I cannot stay in this marriage
And live with all this unhappiness
For unbeknownst to my little girl
She is not getting Mommy at her best

A strong, independent lady
Who stands on her own two feet
Is a much better alternative
Than half a mommy could ever be