All them times we said i love you
how many were u forcing?
how many times did u look at me and hold back the revulsion?
because that was how you were feeling
things were sour for a while?
how comes i didn't notice
or did i, and just cover with a smile?
did i see the cracks,the spills, the loss of love in your eyes and hide the fact that i new all along.
was it wishful thinking that just went wrong?
i look back and i realize that the i love yous were rare.
how the more i needed you the less you were there
how your smile always fell
and the kisses were sparing
i lay awake at night rethinking and staring,
at the picture we took back in happier days
when the blanket of memories had but little frays
when the i love yous were real and the hugs weren't a chore
before you finished that chapter, couldn't take any more
you say that you thought that the love would return,
instead all thats left is the lies and the hurt
the girlfriend you loved, now a distant memory
and all thats left is the despair and regret in me
you said that you loved me, we've shared every kiss
so how did i end up feeling like this?
