Symptoms Of A Syndrome

Sitting in the rain,
Have you ever felt so wrong? So meaningless?
I have wrestled with thy blanket,
It leaves you cold and wet, any way you stretch it.

This water coming from my eyes....
I can't tell if it's from me or the sky
My damned, damp, depressing life,
The more I fight to live, the closer I get to dieing.

Have you any idea what it's like,
To stand on the edge, destined to fall?
To be kept on the outer pane of thick glass,
Knowing you can't be inside?

Until you have been made a mockery,
Until you have everything shoved back at you,
Until you can't take it any longer,
Until you you can't breathe underneath this pressure,
You have not a clue what it's like.

I have seen better days,
I have seen worse days,
And today is neither day,
So what am I to do?

Am I to cringe at the sight of you?
Just like everyone else?
The problem is I can't resist,
You are addictive, passionate, and poised.

I have found that no matter what you say,
I will always be the problem.
I wanted the best for you
For some reason I thought it was me

Even though I am your freind
Even though I need you
Even though I pain when I see you together
Even though I want you to be the only thing in my life
Even though I really can't take it when you say those three words to him
Even though I want you more than anything
And even though I am willing to wait forever,...
I want you to be happy