Awwww..
I'm sorry that you ever had to go through that pain.. I'm also sorry that you felt as if u weren't good enough...and you were better off dead. [I know the feeling...]
You're definately good enough...you're more than good enough. I'm so lucky to have you...and you are more amazing than what you may understand.

It is kind of like the Devil is controling you but God comes and tells you he wants you be on earth a little bit longer

Wow! im reallyy glad your other thought stopped you. you have so much ahead of you, even though it may come with a lot of bumps in the road, theres always something better that comes after that