Running in Spirals

So here it comes
Like cast shadows as the sun sets
Getting longer by the minute
Inevitable

I should have guessed
This is the way it always goes
I saw it coming
I just didn't wish to believe in it just yet

I am alone again

I wish you could see the pain
I wish I could take it out of my skin
And display it for you to see
Would you believe me then?

I'm tearing off the edges
Of the calendar hanging on the wall
And digging my fingernails in my own skin

I've never been one to admit I need anyone
But this time I do
I need you

And I know, I know
You're going to leave as I utter these words
But please stay long enough
For me to gather my thoughts
And figure out a plan
To remove you from the back of my eyelids

I wish I didn't have to say it
But this is one truth I'm not willing to compromise
I need you now
Like I needed you then

And I wish more than anything in the world
That I wasn't alone on this side of the road right now
But as the day grows older
I know that I am