I guess the magic pill isn't so magic
my life is always oh so tragic
a happy day here a cheerful one there
but it's always just a mask i wear
everyone says that it'll get brighter
that the worries are fewer and the burdens are lighter
screw them! they know a thing
when all their words bite and sting
"i love you dear,i love you so"
if that was true i didn't know
other families don't fight and scream
but for me that's just a distant dream
a thought so precious, a thought so pure
to feel warm love and know it's sure
i want it to go, i want it to end
i want my fragile self to mend
but that won't happen, it just won't be
'cause i'm too lost, too stupid me
i wish i could smile and not have to fake it
i wish somehow i knew i could make it
to die would be bliss
no handling this
i just can't refrain
i take the blade and slice my wrist
i have to die, i must insist
sitting alone i silently wait
dying alone i accept my fate.
