Is this what you wanted

Smeared eyeliner & mascara blened with tears
welcome to my life
i feel like im screaming inside
pretendnig to be something im not
i smile when they make me
i act like im little miss happy
inside im crying
saying let me out as im slowly dying
he broke me beacause i deserve better
being broken as i only hear i love you

Screaming back at me im all youve got
knowing he was right i thought
you wait & i said how could you do this to me
so i went to the backyard
and admired what was on the ground
tears streaming about what i found
placing the rope around the tree
and around my neck leaving a note
saying now you cant have me...