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by Tina Carr AKA Snickers Mar 7, 2008 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
Having a terrible day Not one friend In the back of my mind I know how the day will end Rocking back and forth Crying in my room In the back of my mind I know that I am doomed Reaching for the razor Drenched in teardrops In the back of my mind I know that I should stop Recognizing the sting Watching my arm bleed In the back of my mind I know this isn't what I need So many deep cuts Down to the bone In the back of my mind I want to whine and moan Grasping my arm Cringing at the pain In the back of my mind I know I hit a vein They'll say "I told you so" Of course they'll have the nerve In the back of my mind I know it's what I deserve Gritting my teeth Shutting my eyes In the back of my mind I know this is no way to die Bleeding to my death Beginning to pout In the back of my mind I know there's another way out Grabbing Father's gun Chilled by the cold steel In the back of my mind I know it must be real Checking the ammunition Happens to be locked and loaded In the back of my mind I know suicide is outmoded Though I briefly hesitate This cannot be delayed In the back of my mind I know I am afraid Grasping the trigger I finally pull it In the back of my mind Is a bloody lead bullet