No pain, no gain

No pain no gain,
I told myself,
When I carved it on my arm.

No-one cares,
Or understands,
The meaning of self harm.

I hurt inside,
I hurt outside,
Theres nothing left but pain.

It works like this,
if it can't get worse,
Then it must be a gain.

And yet I hide it,
Shy away,
But I cannot hide the shame.

Its my secret,
I cannot tell it,
They think all i want is fame.