As much as you want and need it cant be
the stars align but only to a point
my destiny is in my hands, i am scared
to know what i have to do, to try
am i chasing a lost cause, a dream
somewhat illusion that will never materialise
like an oasis imagined up in the dessert
lose a friend lose a chance lose hope
the hurt the pain to know that i cannot gain
only losses in moments of clarity and joy
it never gets better, it only gets worst
once you reach that pinnacle, its a long way down
i need to know or do i need to know
do i already know the outcome of this verse
a story played within my head a million times
a question asked but never dared answered
a lying truth underneath my eyes
like wounded soldier who never forgot his scars
silence the truth i cannot bear to hear
from my own head and heart i am in despair
