Expectations

Tell me what it is I need to do to make you see
Your expectations are higher than I can reach
I crawl through my days hiding in your shadows
Following every word you've ever tried to teach

Did you think I would be perfect all my life?
Hanging onto dreams that were never even mine
Falling through the cracks of your little world
Trying so hard to make you happy all this time

It's taken 19 years but I'm beginning to see what's real
You say you're looking out for me but that's just a lie
Instead you rather make me feel guilty for everything
Make me feel this shameless hate in order to comply

If I take this last moment to wake up from your trance
Would I finally be free of the chains you placed upon me
Erasing the pain and guilt that I am made from
So that this heavy blanket pulls away and I can now see

Am I cursed to always live in your command?
Like a soul without a backbone to hold me in
Forever to roam in somebody elses footsteps
Because I was just too scared to try and win