He opened the door,
With his everlasting smile,
Half-way through the night,
He bought me a drink.
Half-way through that drink,
I felt nauseous, dirty, incomplete.
Half-way through his words,
I got lost.
Suddenly cold air caressed my body,
I felt him carrying me around,
I felt my mind wandering in and out of time zones.
I remember when i was a little girl,
When i used to play in puddles, and how we all thought boys were gross,
I see his smile,
It feels like a dagger digging at me deeper and deeper.
Half-way too his desired destination,
I collapse in the middle of a dark, cold, homey ally-way.
A white bearded man looks at me confused in every way.
The monster bringing me through this torture,
Picks me back up into reality.
He carry's me, dodging moving cars,
Until we reach a well-lit location.
A car pulls up, with a familiar face at the wheel.
He tells me to stop talking, and if i must, smile a little bit.
Half-way through the car ride,
I start wishing i was anywhere but here,
Why would i trust this man again,
Why would i let him bring me somewhere alone with him.
Why would he be doing this to me.
The car comes to a complete stop,
Through all the tears, frustration, and confusion, i hear 3 car doors pry open.
I feel whats left of my body being dragged out of the car.
Half-way through the driveway i begin to sob.
He drags me down a flight of stairs, and lays me on a couch.
No matter how much i wanted to move,
I looked unconscious,
It was like watching a horrible movie,
Except feeling every emotion, every touch.
Half-way through the night,
The house is asleep.
I felt something at my feet,
Working its way up to my knee,
Up to my stomach,
Passed my breasts,
And up to my lips.
He told me everything will be fine,
He flipped around,
Undressed himself and I.
I awoke that morning fully clothed,
Remembering bits and pieces of that night.
With this man beside me.
Half-way through my contagious stare into this mans eyes,
I give up on everything I've ever known.
