Convince me

I'm screaming it
from the rooftops
staining it
on my sleeve...
Soaking every drop.

Like I've carved it
into my veins
and I've smeared it
over my eyes and written it on my face....

To see the very opposite.
And that's my attention deficit.
No disorder.
Just no real reassurance.
I feel myself choking on it.
You don't love me and never did.
Didn't want her,
and I asked you to dance.

I'm only here
cos of one night,
a few beers
a movie...
Couldn't say goodbye.

I fell too near.
You caught me close.
Couldn't quite hear...
something about morals and here we go.

The sounds that should convince me,
I'm not entirely sure they're real.
Won't say liar
but you know it's on my mind.
It's like you see right through me,
too transparent for you to feel,
I will tire
And I'll fade over time.

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Probably made very little sense to you. But basically. I constantly go on about how perfect my boyfriend is, I've his picture on my phone, I've all sorts of pics of us together on my myspace and that... I comment him when we're not together and I'm always the first to text... I just feel like he never wanted me... But he's too scared to say no =[