I gave you every last spinning molecule in my body.
They dissolved into your lips on the very first night.
I let you keep them all, because I was floating.
I never expected to fall.
I got to hold onto my nerves that torture me with every mention of your name, every memory stored.
I wander like mist around the most miserable parts of the world just waiting for you to find me.
But you aren't even looking.
I'll never know what you did with me.
I'll never uncover where you hid me.
The ground is tracked with my dragging feet that are slowly grinding down to nothing.
The arched slump in my back worsens each night.
You will never know the way this feels, or the way it doesn't.
My teeth groan for you.
My bones decay for you.
My muscles tense for you.
My skin melts for you.
The lines in my palms deepen for you.
The veins in my face drain for you.
The scars on my heart thicken for you.
I let myself die for you, one thousand times a day.
