I long to let it all go
I just donâ??t know what to do
I wonder whether Iâ??m alive or dead
I just donâ??t know anymore
Emotionally I feel dead
But physically Iâ??m still here
Lost
Unappreciated
Untrustworthy
Invisible
Wanting to end this torture tonight
I let everyone around me down
Why stop now
Why not go the extra mile
Itâ??s not like anyone cares now
They just look at me and go
â??We tried our best
Thereâ??s nothing else we can do
To save her now.â??
Whatâ??s another death?
Itâ??s normal for people to die
They just need to understand
That I need a break
A permanent break
I hope they understand that
They didnâ??t drive me to do this
It was just all the pain I suffered all my life
All the torture and abuse
I know I could have a second chance at it all
But I donâ??t deserve it
My family doesnâ??t deserve to be brought down
By the mistakes Iâ??m longing to make
I want them to be happy
And for them to be happy
I canâ??t be here
Iâ??ve caused so much grief on their fragile souls
They need to move on
Learn to forget
Learn to be happy
Appreciate a soul was given up to give them happiness
They donâ??t need to suffer
Just because of the burden I contain within me
I want to eliminate that burden
And to do so I need to eliminate myself
I hope the understand that
So no matter what I chose to do
I hope they support my decision
