Down to every pit of my core,
I earn to get even to settle the score.
Telling you I'm lusting over another man,
I ask myself the question how I can.
I love you so very much situation remains,
I wish I didn't I wish I could change.
I want to hate you for every thing,
Sometime I wish you were just a fling.
I want to get even and cause you pain,
To do so I would be doing it in vain.
To strike your heart with a knife,
For the pain that you caused in my life.
My heart is bitter but my mind is right,
Everything I say- I say out of spite.
Lord help me why am I trying to be mean,
Every thought that possess me is so obscene.
Lord help me - Help me get past this man,
Lord tell me where do I fit into your plan.
Why am I trying to hurt because I've been hurt,
I'm trying Lord I'm trying to be alert.
I can only try to do by your will,
But Lord I'm confused very confused still.
