Invisible

I am not
Invisible

I have a reflection
So I am not a vampire
I do not
Change into
A ware wolf on the full moon
I do not have wings
Nor do I have a tail
Nor feathers
Nor beak
Therefore I am human

I do not dissipate like the fog
Does when the sun comes out
So I am not a gas
I do not evaporate like water
When the sun is above me
So I am not a liquid
Therefore I am a solid mass

And yet I feel
Invisible
People ignore
Me,
Stare through
Me,
Pretend I am
Not there

People think
That I have no
Feelings
They throw
Insults at me
They tease me
They laugh at me
And
Hate me

And yet I still treat
Them kindly
I let them barrow
Anything they
Need
I receive no thanks
From them
Instead
My kindness is rewarded
With insults

When I receive my "reward"
I keep my feelings to myself
They may think that I am afraid
To stand up for myself
But that is not true
I take their insults
Because of their
Ignorance towards
My past
They do not know
That I was
Molested, nor that starved
Nor abused
Nor that
I had to go to
Court to testify
Against my parents
And my half-brother's
Father

They do not know
That I was placed
In a foster home where
The foster parents were
Greedy and used the
Money they received from
Child care for their
Own greedy selves

They do not know that
I was then placed in another
Foster home where
The people were kind
But strict
Nor do they know that
When I was starting to become
Attached to them
I was ripped away
From them and given
To strangers
Who now are my
"Parents" because of
A court documentation
That granted them
Permission to
Obtain parental rights over
My half-brother and myself

They do not know that
Every time they catch
Me off guard that
They knock down the walls
That I have built
Around me
To keep me safe

Every insult, every
Unspoken thought, every
Disrespectful thing is
Another wall built around me

Every time my walls
Are knocked down they
Are rebuilt just as quickly
And
Twice as high and twice
As thick as before

Only two people in
The world see me
And those two people
Make up my entire family,
And make up for all the friends
I do not have
Those people are the
Only people in the world
Who see me
To everyone else I am
Invisible.