Abruptly Torn

My reflection ripples in the blue waters.
That barely kiss the sandy shore,
where i sit and think about my daughters,
and how my life could have meant more.
Underneath the midnight sky laced with stars,
the crisp air eases tormented spirits of the past.
I let the soft moonlight bath my scars,
as I forget the voices and images that never last.
I see my girls laughing and playing in my mind,
I'm unable to help, but breakdown and cry,
searching for the peace I need and can't find,
scarlet tears drip from sad, dark eyes.

My father stands in the mist, head slightly bowed.
His warm welcoming arms stretched wide,
He loves me, but I know that he is not proud,
of all the pain that I am harboring inside.
For a shinning moment he held me tight,
I took in the woody scent of his cologne,
he then, just soft of faded off into the night,
leaving me sitting in the shadows all alone.
Again i thought I felt a loss, I could not bare.
A burden weighing heavy on my heart.
I was so deep in desolate. dark despair,
that I let it, abruptly tear my world apart.