Why?

Why am I so broken
why am I alone
why has my chest been ripped open
and my heart left without a home

why don't people see
why do they abuse
why does my pain never cease
and I'm left scarred and bruised

why am I broken hearted
why did you lead me down this path
why am I martyred
for being who I am

why do I force this hate upon me
why am I quick to forgive
why don't my friends care
about this painful life I live

why do I ask all these questions, God?
why do I long for Your answers?
where is my end's destination, Lord?
when will I be able to have my real pleasure
instead of these earthly desires
that leave my life disheveled