We Were So Much Alike, We Kept Repelling Off Eachother

Just go ahead and keep using those big words that you always loved to use. I know you think they cover up who you really are, but to me you're just an optical illusion that I've already figured out. Take a look at how we keep breaking down each other's barriers, and letting down our guards, only to put up new defenses. To be honest, I'm a little exhausted of this roundabout game, always ending up back where we started. So I look into your eyes to find answers to this doubt, and all I can think about is how sad my reflection looks in your eye, but maybe the tears I'm seeing are yours, and maybe you too see a saddened reflection of yourself in my eyes, mistaking my tears for your own.

Some people tend to learn faster than others, and some of us just don't want to learn, but when you were running I was taking baby steps, and I still needed training wheels, while you were already riding with the big kids. Sometimes I think we were so busy living in the moment that we forgot to look into the future, instead getting stuck in the past. You always tried to put my puzzle together, and I remember the night you told me you were still trying to figure me out. I don't think you ever did though. I say we never really did know each other, because we were always so far apart, that you never met the real me. We truly did hate reading between the lines, for we preferred to state the obvious, than to face the actual truth. We always thought we understood the world better than the others, so we chose an existence in which we were the only two who existed. We said we were the special two, but all along we were the ones being laughed at.

We understood each other better than we understood ourselves, and I think that maybe that was the problem. You know I never really did get enough of you to hold onto forever. They say opposites attract but we were so much alike that we kept repelling off each other's thoughts and feelings, and the closer we got, the further we were pushed away. I must say that what we had was as perfect as a first love could ever be, but that's just it, it was only the first.

This truly is the furthest apart we've ever repelled, but putting aside all lies, I know it's for the best.

March 11, 2008