I hate myself for not hating you

I hate myself for not hating you
after everything you have put me through
you have broken my heart every day
but still my love for you stays the same
i cant make myself hate the man i love
because no matter how broken my heart is still filled with love
i will love you until teh day i die
and not matter wat you do it will never subside
i hate myself for not hatiing you
but there is nothing that i can really do
i keep praying for that hopeful day
when you will come to me and say
im sry for all i put u through
and if you give me that chanve ill make it all up to
i dont know if that day will ever come
but i will pray for it to come
i hate myself for not hating you
but i want you to know that i will always love you