Smashing time in the rain

Against the wind, my hair does blow,
Breathing deep this icy fragrance,
My chest rising and falling rhythmically,
Sucking in breaths, the air feeling dense.

The trees seem to be gray, my lips turn blue,
Walking barefoot on this cold, stone pavement,
Diverting identical scenes, passing by,
Noticing that house, so much time I had spent.

My chest lyes still, I've forgotten how to breath,
My eyes become wide, I am glued to this spot,
Heart thumping faster, my eyes well up with tears,
Starring blankly at the window, hoping I wont get caught.

Then I see them lying there, smiling on the couch,
Feeling my heart skip a beat, I tremble,
Freezing my arms turn blue, the sky starts to fade,
Looking at you now, that girl I do resemble.

Then you spot me I know it and you fumble off the couch,
Tears slide down my icy cheeks, alone I walk,
Cars speeding past, rain splashing from the sides,
Running I see you behind me, sure you'd like to talk.

Then you catch up, my chest sinks to my cold feet,
A hand you place on my shoulder, so warm,
Eyes shut tight, tears escaping through the slots,
Thunder clouds boom and lightning strikes this storm.

Memories flash back to our first kiss in the rain,
Twirling and laughing what a magical day,
Now were standing here wet, and confused,
I'd wish you'd walk me home or just let me stay.

Instead you say "it will be OK", then turn around,
I collapse to the cold pavement, head in my heels,
Flashing lights, deafening horn, spiraling closer,
"Bang!", that's it, still no one will know how this feels.