Who Are You ?

I light up a cigarette and stare out the veranda
Nothing's really moving in the dead quiet of the night
And such silence makes me bite my lip
A little too hard, cause I can taste blood

Blood? I laugh and lick it off.
Blood is nothing compared to what I've been through, is it?
I suck hard on my cigarette and think of you

Who are you, really?
Ask me that question now and I'll jump to answer it.
I'll fight scream and cry if you dare say I'm wrong
I've seen enough to know who you are

You are the guy who chatted me up with all innocence
You are the guy who had that magical laugh which made me tingle all over
Hey, arent you the guy who kissed me so gently?
Always pulling back so slightly to see the bliss on my face?

Yeah, you are.
You held my hand, you hugged me close
You tucked the lose strands of hair behind my ear
You helped me adjust that piece of me who thought liking a boy was just for suckers.

Where are you now, then?
Oh, I forgot
Didn't you take off with this other girl?
Didn't you lie to me and say you were spending the day with the guys?
Weren't you the one who showed me her picture and asked me what I thought of her?

Yeah, you were.
You were the one who laughed with your friends when you saw me crying
You were the one who asked me, " What? What did I do?"
You were the one who broke up with me on my birthday

You were the one who said I was a chicken when I first picked up smoking
So maybe I needed to smoke MORE, just to prove to you that hey, I CAN.
You were the one who only noticed me again after I had multiple piercings

I stub out my cigarette and shufle back to bed
I guess you weren't really mine, never actually
But you were just this butterfly
Which I could never catch
So beautiful, so golden
But strip you bare, take off your pretty wings
And all i find is an ugly little insect with too many legs