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by Special k Mar 12, 2008 category : Sadness, depression / about death
A broken smile a broken heart a broken daughter from the start 2 years old my father left 9 years old my mother faced death 13 years old the first heart break 14 years old death takes its place now we are here where i am 15 years old i don't want to live i just want to be cold i want to be alive but dead within my skin i want to watch you cry yourself to sleep as you see me die within i want to take this blade and slice my f.u.c.k.i.n.g throat i want to take this time to write this f.u.c.k.i.n.g note i want to tell you something that i think you need to know i cut myself everyday and yet i don't go i stare at myself in the mirror angry at this face i want to run the blade right through the skin that sits in place i want to watch myself bleed and watch it drip to the floor i want to be on the ground dying next to the door i want all of you to read this and tell me what could have been i want everyone to know me now that I'm not anyones friend i never planned a future because i knew my life would end i never had any friends because they had no hands to lend i never talked to anyone because i bottled it all up I'm surprised they didn't see my wrists and how they were full of cuts my dear oh my dear why have you forsaken me my heart was burnt bloody and sore oh why didn't you see you say you knew everything then why didn't you know this why were you the one who tried to cut MY f.u.c.k.i.n.g. wrists did you want me dead as well because ill show you the truth ill show you i wasn't afraid at all that i just wanted you my tears run down and soak my blade and clean it of the blood my heart sinks down into its place and i think now that I'm done i take this blade and hold it close to this vein on my wrist i kiss my hand and say "stay strong" I'm sorry I'm doing this but this is for my own good these cuts upon my wrist this time they are a little deep and i hope you know i quit so break me as hard as you can I'm ready right now break my heart and leave me there as i fall to the ground i just sit there bleeding this blood is the last time oh hunny beibi darling boy how i wish you were mine but this is not for you my love its for me to live my life and if i have to live it now by the stained knife my god i will live it in hell waiting for you to come because i know you'll be there soon along with your first son so break my down you b.a.s.t.a.r.d I'm ready for your s.h.i.t. i will not break for you again B.I.T.C.H. I'M DONE WITH THIS[I'm sorry if its bad i haven't written a suicide poem in forever]
by katie
That was a grate desciptive pome i love it very deep and well writen
by kookie
This poem is amazing i loves you and i am your friend i'll always be there for you and a d.i.c.k. isnt worth it baby just you wait lesbains are gonna rule the wrold