After all that time

You inspired me for the better now that i'm over the worst. You keep me smiling and laughing now that it no longer hurts. You know what you did and i too, even though you won't admit what you did or the things you might do. You say you want me and you say you want to have a child by me but why would I do that when you had your way with my cousin? How stupid would i be to go with you and let you complete what you came to pusue? Everyone knows about you and her and just the idea of "us" just doesn't work. I'm still not understanding why you had to hurt me enough to make me cry . Im a good person and so kind you must have been outside your mind but you up and decided to leave me behind after being right by my side all that time.