Walking next to you

Walking next to you makes me realize just how alone I am in this big cruel world,
Staring at you only makes me long for the past again,
Long for what came and disappeared in an instant

So Victimized by deep insensitive eyes,
Glaring at me with intensity,
Their eyes are opened wide,
I can feel their presence and I plead for it to leave,
But it only ever dies down when they have had enough of picking at me

Walking beside you,
Holding and linking arms we would smile,
Speak of happy things and speak of happy times,
Which has all gone and died down,
Can't do nothing now,
Left in silence,
Not even a sound

I wear my fringe draped across my eyes,
Over my ears,
I like this disguise,
See you come and sit down,
Sit across the room,
I do look but you are never aware,
When you looked at me,
It felt like if I wasn't around

Once such a comfortable situation,
Now I'm so insecure and uncomfortable right now,
Not even my mask could disguise me from you,
You know everything there is about me,
And unfortunately,
I know everything there is to know about you too.

I scuff my feet as I force my weak legs to take me home,
Felling so empty,
Hang my head in shame,
Self esteem is at an all time low,
Not even you could raise me up now,
Not even you,
Could help this waist of a life.
But there's got to be some how,
Someone else for me,
Right?

[Random but to some what means a lot to me, please COMMENT AND LEAVE SUGGESTIONS/FEED BACK, or if it plain out sucks just let me know lol...I would like to then transfer it into a song, and then write music to it, and preform it, thank you heaps xx]