I have laughed
I have cried
I have smiled
I have frowned
I have lived
And I have died
Each one of these actions has caused me to become who I am today,
I have learned that there is a plan for my life and things may happen this way,
I am destined to experience the darkest days of the night and the lightest days of the day,
And there will be days where I feel I have nothing left to say.
Those times that I have laughed, Man I laughed until my stomach began to ache,
Falling on the floor with vital joy and expression feeling as if I had survived a near drowning within a lake,
The laughter ringing so loud it caused others to partake,
While I continued rolling on the floor and pounding on it as if I was trying to create an earthquake.
Those times that I have cried, Man I cried until my eyes were completely dry,
Gasped for air and held onto my pillow with the exhaustion of every little sigh,
Asking God about the things in my life shouting "Why God Why",
Wanting to put my frustrations to rest and finally let my soul fly.
Those times that I have smiled, Man I smiled like two parents finally giving life,
Not worrying about any of my drama or any of my strife,
Understanding that everything in life doesdozeneel as if you are being cut by a knife,
Thinking of all the good in my future to come like when I establish a career and marry my wife.
Those times that I have frowned, Man I frowned so low my lips were on the ground,
I could not make a single sound,
Feeling as if my happiness had been washed down a drain and will never again be found,
While I would sit and wonder why I was feeling as if my best friend just drowned.
Those times that I have lived, Man I lived the life that only people could dream of,
Sitting on cloud nine where not a single thing could reach, not even a dove,
Feeling so superior to everyone below me as I would wave from above,
Nothing could hurt me because I felt I had all the power, strength, and the love.
And then, there were those times that I died. Man I died.
I fell so hard that I hit six feet immediately without a pause,
Life feeling as if it was ripped away with some angry beasts jagged-edged claws,
As if I were being punished or sentenced for having my own flaws,
While feeling my body become empty as if the life had been sucked out by 10 human-sucking straws.
In my life these things seem to compete within a cycle or some kind of important order.
Causing me to grow as a person, learn to understand that I will endure forms of hurt, appreciate the little things in life, be thankful for those around me, obtain the strength to accept the things I cannot change and the wisdom to know the difference.
I heard a quote stating, life is 10% of what happens to you, and 90% of how you react to what happens to you! This quote sums it all, Its time for me to stop accepting life as it comes at me and really, just start living it.
