From the beginning

From the beginning
all went wrong,

i was the baby
inside your womb.

Never knew
what life would be
so i got out
to see that it
would be difficult
for me.

you love me mommy,
i see its true
but there's things
you don't know
and they're all about,
me

to hold a knife
and not cut myself
is difficult to do,
to hold sedatives
and not indulge,
sometimes i just wish i were you