Walking dead

I choose not to live and not to die.
but why is it i have to live this lie?
why pretend to be what I'm not
why did i give up when i should have fought
this life of mine ended long ago
but, for that, i have nothing to show
the walking dead, thats me
i just wish others could see
how can they not see that Ive lied
why couldn't i have just died,
taken my life,
while cutting too deep with my knife.