So I'll hold my breath and swallow my shame.
Choke on my words and suck it in,
As I tell you that I've lost my conscience.
You tell me there's something wrong with me,
I tell you how narrow your mind is,
and that I just want some control.
Anything to feel the emptiness,
to feel the ache inside, to feel actual pain
And not feel so numb to the world.
I need this for myself,
I need this to feel alive.
