When I look deep in your eyes i don't see the spark any longer. Your mind has shut me out just as you have done to your feelings.
I try ever so hard to pull you out of the trance you have fallen into and yet you push me away. My heart is slowly becoming numb to the pain I am feeling, yet the process is challenging my sanity, it's tearing me apart.
I see you and inside I break down, nothing is the same anymore. My head runs wild with thoughts of you and I constantly ask myself if you care. I constantly search for a hint, a call for help... for a hand waiting to grab hold and embrace me.
My search continues to remian empty handed, Yet there is this hope that you will realize, understand that you need me, that you love me.
This hope is struggling within me telling me to stay, telling me it's only a phase but my body remians the same, keeping my broken heart beating, keeping the numbness spreading. The only thing that can save me is to become numb and broken or be rescued by your love.
So I sit here struggling, hoping, wishing, and waiting for my fate to take hold and guide me to destruction or redemption... to life with or without you, my love.
