Smile and pretend

Look at my pretty smile
look at my glowing eyes
but all of it
is a lie

i'm gonna be happy
so that you aren't sad
i don't want to drag you down with me
i'm not that person. i'm not that bad.

and just cuz
i hate me
doesn't mean that you do too
you'll never know, cuz i'm pretending to be happy

and maybe i'll explode
one of these days
go out with a bang
in an interesting way

these feelings are real
but i'm gonna push them down
let's play makebelieve
smile instead of frown