Its one of those..im not myself anymore type of things. . .-mellyboo
theres an image ive created for myself & its that im always happy.
but only real friends know that this isnt the real me.
for every giggle theres a thousand tears.
& for every smile theres a bigger fear.
i choke up & stop breathing..
like a little girl telling her first lie.
giving me this feeling as if im going to die.
this pain i feel killing every feeling..
sucking out the energy from my heart.
like a demon taking over me.
tearing me apart.
walking with my head down so no-one will see my insipid face.
shedding all these lonely tears as if im a disgrace.
_mellyboo[october 3O,2O07]
